“For there is nothing heavier than compassion. Not even one’s own pain weighs so heavy as the pain one feels with someone, for someone, a pain intensified by the imagination and prolonged by a hundred echoes.”—The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera
Chuck came over today and it was just fantastic. Nothing major occurred. No big plans were made. He simply came to my house and had dinner with us and we watched TV. And I could not have asked for a better day. I hate to not appreciate the now (although I do… A LOT!) but I truly think that me and Chuck have a future together that I haven’t seen with any other guy. We make each other smile and laugh and it’s really effortless. We are okay with just spending the day at our houses or going out. We don’t feel bad if we spend the day playing video games, eating and napping. And I know he really loves me. And I love him too.
Tomorrow, I start classes and I know that we will be okay. I hate that I won’t be able to see him as much but I know it will all work out.
(Side note: Still hate school. Still want to leave and never turn back. Just want to live on my own with Chuck and be happy.)
I am in love with Charles Benjamin Morris. He makes me smile like a goon all the time. He makes me happier than anyone has. I couldn’t be luckier.
My school emailed me TODAY to tell me I have a hold on my account. TODAY! THE SAME FUCKING WEEK SCHOOL STARTS! WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU ALL FUCKING SUMMER?!?! pissed. hate fucking school. I wish I could drop the fuck out and live happily at a decent job. PLUS, cherry on top, I found out I have the teacher that fucked me over before for my accounting class again. fuck my fucking life.